Monday, July 13, 2009

ஐღº Stuck in the middle ºღஐ

On the first sight of that picture up there, whats in your mind?=P
Especially for Form 5 SPM takers... hahahaXD its obvious isn't it?

Yes, i named this picture "Stuck in the middle"
Meaning of this pic (Stuck in the middle between pain and joy with little time left)

What have we done in the past 4 years, 6 months and 13 day of our life?
Of course going to secondary school!XD
Getting into troubles, getting in love, getting in to some serious studies, although seldom...
As for SPM students like my self! Our secondary life are going to end really really soon!
just a few months to go, and here comes SPM...
Think back in those old time when i was in form one, i use to say one thing whenever exam comes "Ai yo, PMR is still 2 years away!!! scare what?!"
And the next thing i know, PMR is tomorrow, and im hugging my book crying about it...
(i didn't cry la~ just joking)
But luckily i had a good tuition teacher that saved me and my results were consider good^^

And the day PMR was over, i said "AI yo SPM are still 2 years away! scare what?!!"
And Poof~
Holy shit.... its 3 months away...T.T
Its time to drop that PSP, pick up a book and start chewing on it!

Those thing that i said really makes me think back about those time when i was in form 1, a little jerk that pisses everyone off.... lols.... and i can't believe i am still one!! hahaha...
But seriously... To those juniors that might be reading my post now... Cherish your time...=P
I wasted mine in many ways, but for my case its a little different, because i gain alot of experience and learned a lot from those things i did.... and im enjoying my secondary life...^^
in fact, doing stupid things are just a part of our secondary life, you don't wanna come out of secondary school telling everyone that the only thing you did is Study and sport right?
Sometimes things that friends do with us might be stupid, but its something that we will always remember, and its a nice memory, so when you are in secondary school, remember to follow the NAN theory!!XD Nike, Just do it ; Adidas, Impossible is nothing ; NBA, Where amaizing happens.
( But please, dont over do it-.- don't burn the school down like we nearly did...hahah JKJK)

enough about SPM!! thinking about it makes me tention-.-



oh ya... and this pic=P
for you babyXD
hahahhaah the teddy!=P
^^


thats all for now, blog again soon.....



outs...
ஐღº Mr.Axel ºღஐ

Saturday, July 11, 2009

ஐღº The Char Kuey Tiao Uncle ºღஐ

Note : (Char Kuey Tiao means a fried flat rice noodle, its a Chinese food and its usually spicy)





Another normal day begins from the second i wake up which is 7:30am =)
Wtf? 7:30am?!!!!
And yes! i am late for school!!! It was a not so "usual" Saturday because there was school, lol...
i went out of my room, stood in front of the clock placed in the living room for awhile, and i found 2 reasons to go to school... 1) Its our Terk Chin's birthday!!! Happy birthday Terk Chin!!XD (oh ya, i heard it was Shaun's too, happy birthday to you too!^^) 2) Promised Lawrence that i'll go to school (and that dude didn't came himself-.-)...
Well, after making decision i rushed and by 7:45am, and yea i know im pretty fast=P
I decided to avoid some unnecessary conflicts in school... Didn't wanted to meet someone i don't want to see in school, i btw you all out there thats been late know who i meant...
So mother and i decided to have breakfast at some hawker at maluri... We reached there, and my mother wanted to order the same Char Kuey Tiao with me, so i walked to the uncle there, and i said: "Uncle, liong dip Char Kuey Tiao, Yat Dai Yat Sai, Jing Kuey Tiao" (Translate: "Uncle, two plate of Char Kuey Tiao, one big one small, flat rice noodle only.")
The uncle then turned around and said: "Hou hou, mou man tai, dan hai you dang me fan zong wor, Ok mou?" (Translate: "OkOk, no problem, but have to wait 5 minutes, is that ok?")
Of course i said yes, and i then walked back to my seat, facing my mother. There was filled with people and the fan are really loud, the place was not really dirty and everything was fine, except for one thing that's been turning around and round inside my mind that time... That is, i felt something special about that uncle... the thing is... when he was speaking to me, he was holding a smile even though he was busy preparing other's orders. And he used a very simple way to answer me, but the feeling was just different.... and i found out why.... it was the smile...=)
I was siting waiting for him to cook my Char Kuey Tiao, but at the same time i was just sitting there, doing nothing but observing him cooking and his actions... He was around 60 maybe... he has white hair, simple clothing, but a really warming smile... Every time he sends his food to his customers, his always in a rush, as if he was afraid that the food would get cold, but he still has a smile on his face... The food then finally came on to my table, facing its last few moment before its going to my tummy hell. As we were paying the uncle, as usual, he still puts on that smile of his. My mom and me then got in to the car and heads for school.

When we got on the car, as usual we talked about the meal we had. My mom said it was normal... But to me... the taste, yes it was normal, pretty average, but there seems to be something extra in it, maybe its something called "happiness"? Its like, even though the work was not an easy one and he was having tons of thing to do yet he can still speaks to me with a smile on his face, maybe that's what that perfected the taste of the Char Kuey Tiao... A feeling of endless happiness and hardworking. Its important when a person is working at a happy mood rather than a sad mood... For him, his doing something he enjoys, his life is just cooking and serving people, but even though he might not be in a 5 star hotel being the main chef, but his working happily and his enjoying his life! To us it might be like he has wasted his life for just being an average Cook at some hawker center, but to him its all he have, and his enjoying his life and his work, and his always putting on a smile and does his best to cook every single plate of Char Kuey Tiao, he has chosen the path that he wants, most importantly, he spent his life happily.

One who spends his life happily is worth ten times the one that spends his life in sadness.

Nothing is good when its sad, to say it in things that is in long term, for example our occupation. If you wanted to be a musician, there is no meaning spending half of your life time "Trying" to be a doctor and have your life miserable and your patients thinking that your not trying your best to save them. And that time you'll start thinking "why didn't i choose something i wished to do rather than something i needed to do at the starting?" but of course sometimes things can be inevitable due to financial or other problems...
As for short term problems, people always tells us when we're sad"why sad when you can be happy?" yes sounds simple, but its not easy, even for my self sometimes. When an obstacle drops from the sky and blocks our way to future in life, what should we do? of course two ways, go around it, or cross it. But what happens when the obstacle dropped ON us instead? It'll throw us into a miserable and sad state, sometimes it can't be helped but to cry out loudly and releases our feelings, but what happens after the big cry? Continue thinking about it and stuck under the stone?
there is a saying "There is always a bright shiny sun after the big rainy storm."
We must always remember one thing when we are sad, that is, this is all going to be the past tomorrow, face the fact that there is nothing we can do to change the past, but there is something we can do to make a better tomorrow, and its clear that crying is not the thing to do.

But as for the Char Kuey Tiao uncle, he never cried because he is not earning enough or something, to be frank, its a fate that's almost impossible for his to change, but what he can do is think about how can he improve his skills doing the same thing, and be better at it day by day, and always works happily so he can have a happy life.

To all out there...
Life are not always meant to be sad, and believe me, being sad and miserable in life is not the right choice, no matter you are from a rich family, average family or a poor family, sadness is something that no one can escape from. Rich people has rich people's sadness, poor people has poor people's, but one thing for sure happiness is something that won't just come to us if we don't accept its coming. Friends for example, is the main source of happiness a person can ever get in their lives. Those memories of friends and us playing together, doing things together, quarreling together, its all going to be memories, and one day these memories are going to make us tears, not because it was sad or something, but because it was once something that happened to us and we treasure those memories... At times we might think that things are just full of shit and we don't give a shit about it, but as we grow older we will start thinking, why didn't i give a shit bout it that time when i was younger? Damn i missed the chance.

Some times in life, there is a lot of things that can't be changed. What most important is now and the future. The past is the past, stop crying today, and make a better tomorrow, if not for others, at lease for yourself. Its important to learn to let go and get a better future.
Especially in a relationship, when a couple breaks up, be sure to remember this...

"Don't be sad because it ended......
Be happy because it happened.......
Because its all a part of my memory forever..."






To everyone, this is the impression the Char Kuey Tiao uncle gave me, and i find it quite important to me in my life, how about you? Please vote on my polls =P

Take care ALL!!^^
( beware of H1N1!!! drink more water ya my blog visitors!^^)




Outs....
ஐღº Mr.Axel ºღஐ

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

ஐღº Miracle ºღஐ

Today, i met an old friend...
I met her a few years ago...
But lost contact because she hasn't been online for quite some time...
Fortunately i saw her online today! i talked to her... but unfortunately she seems to have forgotten about me... Well its not her fault since i hasn't been talking to her for quite awhile...

Her name was..... well lets not mention it here...
She was a really nice person, friendly, kind, caring, lovely etc etc...
But she had a really big problem... and that is that shes deaf.... the story was sad, when she was still young she got slapped on the face so hard that caused her permanent hearing problem...
She tried a few places to overcome her hearing problems, but all told her that it was impossible...
The last time i talked to her she was treating life as something really important even though she was deaf...
She once told me that she believes that miracle would come someday, and I'm always there listening and agrees to her... Even though life's been hard on her she has never gave up, not even once. I can still remember the first time i call her, she was like "Har? What? Speak up!!" I was already yelling at the peak of my lungs that time while she was saying that-.- so i could only chat with her online since shes not so well in hearing...

Then today i met her online, i quickly clicked to her and chatted with her, and as i said, she has forgotten bout me... But i quickly realized something different about her...
I was thinking for awhile... and i knew... it was the way she was speaking... That particular person that's chatting with me that time its not her anymore...
Its not because she knocked herself on the head so hard that she forgets who she is or something, but its more like, she has became someone different... someone more... happy...

I then asked her about her listening problems... She said that she was cured! I was surprised and she told me that she said something to me "I was cured thanks to this country and a friend that i just met". These words kept me wondering... Is it true that everyone is given a chance in life, if we don't give up? Imagine is she has already gave up her life sometime ago, will she ever have this opportunity to be able to hear thing again? It was her dream to be able to listen back to things... She begged for this so badly, while all of us were covering our ears to ignore nagging from our parents... Her live was once like a sky filled with dark clouds with a slight thin light coming thru it, till that someone friend of her came in and brought in a sunny day and swept away her sadness and bringing her dream come true...

That's about it, yea its kinda short i know compare to my usual posts, but this one... really gets me speechless sometimes.... couldn't stop thinking about what a person she has become now...
Shes happy...=)
I'm glad that she has overcome her greatest obstacle in her life, even though she couldn't remember me anymore...

Miracle do happen, but it doesn't happen by it self...
Us ourselves must try our best to achieve it...
Nothings free and nothing can be achieved without trying hard...
Everything is possible and miracle will always shine upon us as long as we try our very best...

Lets all believe in "MENU".=)
Its a "MENU" of life, there are many things in it, but its all up to you what to choose, what appetizer, which main course and what dessert to have.
"A doctor can't pray for a patients sickness to heal, but heal it with all he can and creates a miracle"

Every one's life is their owns, no one can steal it away from you and there are always some problems no one can help you with, that time its up to you to try your very best and miracle will be assured...
So remember to always cherish what you have and always believe in yourself and what you do...
Some day miracle will find you too, as long as your giving in all you have and do your best...


Outs....
ஐღº Mr.Axel ºღஐ

Saturday, July 4, 2009

ஐღº Forget & Forgive ºღஐ

Forget and forgive many may have said since the ancient times...but does anyone actually knows the true meaning of forget and forgive?
Ask yourself everyone, how many people has you forgive before?
Have you forgive everyone that was once in a quarrel with you?

Opps... i started to write this blog at 11pm, then i went out till 12:35am, i just got back!!
a little light headed..
but like... damn pissed now...
ehh, its like...
Cmon la.. why must everyone in this world like being like damn retarded?
just forget and forgive la..
what do we meant by forget and forgive anyway?
is it like just dont remember something someone did to you, and be their friends?
is that what the FF theory is about?

Ok, lets start with forget first...
So is forget just about forgetting something someone did or some shit like that?
but seriously, people say stuff like "im going to forget about our past and live on with life" while they break up, or something like "im just gotta forget about this incident and face my fear" when they screw up something... but really, can one people actually forget something just like that?
If we could, this world would indeed be a much easier place to live on...
Just use some common sense ok... If that certain matter was so serious that made us say "im going to forget about all these and continue living my life" its like, WTF?
if a person could take something that seriously, its clear that its not something simply like spilling a coffee or something. Since its such a important matter, how could a person possibly forget something like that? unless you have STML (Short Term Memory Lost) or something then its a different story... But if a person really has the determination not to think about it at all and tries his/her best to forget about that problem, even we would really live our live without thinking about it at all, if one day something similar happens, how would they react? like nothing similar has happen before? impossible right? unless you knock yourself on the wall really damn hard, or else its near impossible to forget something that we ourselves wants to forget.

enought bout the forget shit, lets talk bout forgive...
YESSSS forgive!! some shit that people cant do, well... not everyone, but some people in this world are just way to freaking stubborn like some prick with shits in their mouth!
Why do i say so? because they are just too much people in this world that holds a grudge...
and why am i so pissed when im talking about this topic? because some people are just way to freaking selfish... cmon its like, why are you people like that retarded? not referring to anyone, just some thoughts i have in my mind, so if YOU think im talking about you, then please kindly move your mouse to the [X] thingy at the upper right corner on your screen and CLICK it dammit! To those that know im not talking about you, let me continue=)
well... how do it put it...hmmm..... its like, in this world, there are not really any good being a nice guy, why? because you can do a hundred good deeds to a person, and all you need is to do one bad deed, and your a f**ked up bad guy, why? BECAUSE ITS HUMAN NATURE! its just how the world works! when you does something for someone and especially when its something good, most people would have no feel at all, but when you does something bad to them, ohhh yeah your damn screwed... so cmon, cant people just forgive?
How hard is it to say "its okay"?!! No one are expecting anyone to be like Jesus that forgives everyone! but seriously its not easy to be jesus, but lets leave lord himself out of this blog...
Give a simple example, MJ, the king of pop, some people are still talking about how bad he is just because he did it with some little kids? BTW FYI to all out there, there were no evidence at all about MJ molesting a little kid okay... and cmon .... his already passed away man! why are you people still gossiping and cursing him? Cant you guys out there give him a break? his already RIP okay? so please, stop what you are saying, if you really dont like him, just keep it i your mind and shut up. So is it really that hard to forgive someone? even after their dead?
But usually people forgives one another after their life is over, because when one day they realise its over, they will damn regret why didnt they just forgive someone and have an extra friend before they die.
As for my self, im a person that easily forgives someone... i cant hold the feeling of someone like being my enemy or annoying in anyway, no matter you believe or not, but people which really knows me know who i am inside but not what people can see outside. I didnt just said all those my self, but alot people has been telling me that im just sometimes too soft on people and i have no idea why they says that...


So in the end, how many of us really knows how to Forget and Forgive?
To forget about what a person did to us before and forgive them...
Vote on my latest poll please, thanks all...



outs....
ஐღº Mr.Axel ºღஐ