well... To look back at the early of this year, time seems to have passed so fast... 10 months seems just in a blink of an eye... My SAM is finally ending... and for some of us i do know that we might not have the chance of meeting again... but still i treasure this relationship and bond that fate has brought upon for us...
In college, life were never the same... Before we get into college, we never knew things could be this complicated... not just because of the stressful assignments, but people as well... our community around us... keep your mouth shut, and you could be a lone ranger for your whole SAM, studying like a cow... but things sometimes just happens so late and so slow... anyway, lets get into the point... in college we get to experience many things... well of course we do, what im trying to say is that when a person has really walked thru an experience like this, they could really understand what is growing up... the feeling when people around you are starting to think differently and people who you've judge by looks, might just shock you... At the late of this year, i got to know a girl, whos name is ******** (confidentiality purposes). Well lets say that some friend of mine really have some fetish with me, we love to judge people, but of course its just for our own entertainment (i know its kinda weird), we thought she was a really playful and wild girl, does things regardless of what others think. But we were wrong, dead wrong... after getting to know her, she weren't the same... She has shared her stories with us, we got to know her better, upon realizing that shes a totally different person from who we expected, it really shocked us... In a way that how could someone that looked like that could be so different from what we expected, although we've learned long before that we are not suppose to judge a book by its cover, judge a person by how they look... But she made me realize that in life, there are many things that varies, even for a beautiful girl like her had told us, she does not change her so called "target" so fast for no reason... Why must a person be called such things as "playgirl" or "playboy"? People just wanted to find that special someone in their life, its not anyone's right to judge. So if you were together with a person, you gave both of you a chance, and things didn't work out, things got worst and awkward, whats the best choice? To hold on and feel more awkward and ending up being strangers, or just end it and still be able to be friends? Its a tough choice to make... As choices are what that made things happen in our life... just like today, i hit my god dammed car into a concrete wall (damn i was blind...). At first i was as pissed as hell!!! Of course i would, i mean, who wouldn't? right? but then just after awhile I've hit my car, i received a message from a friend of mine, saying that she was at a wedding dinner... And i actually smiled to such a simple message... No doubt i was really happy that she had messaged me, making me realized that she was really a person that could bring happiness into my life... Then thinking back what if i didn't hit my car in to a GODDAMMNED concrete wall, how would i feel then? Would i feel different? Would i feel that feeling that i get when i got all the way from pissed to smiling by just such a simple little message that took less than a minute to type and send?
In life we often takes things for granted, no doubt i'm one of those idiots as well. Last time i would think that getting a girl to love me is something that i could be proud of... Getting a really good looking girlfriend is something to boast around about... But sometimes we have placed these things in our mind so much, we mind about how people see us with our lovers together, we've forget that what was the first reason that we loved each other... was it because we loved each other? or was it just to satisfy our own needs?
If we were to say that "love" was something for weaklings, only weak people would learn to love... to have emotions... how would this world be like? Its amazing how love could drive a person to achieve their goals, and how love could make a person die... How many great wars in the ancient times were lost because of love... We could say that it is a strong emotion that could conquer all, at the same time destroy all...
Because of those things i've realized, maybe its time i should stop trying to find that someone for me, but wait for fate to do its thing?
I've just totally lost track of what to write because of some really annoying sound at 5:43am in the morning... People whom live in Malaysia should understand... haha...
well i guess thats all for now... although to be honest, there are things that i wanted to write at the end but didn't... Somethings are better kept this way in the dark i assume...
GOOD MORNING WORLDDD~^^
Thx guys for still reading my blog...
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