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This is the story of a man...

A man whom many depend on;
When they are in morose.
A man whom many people know him;
His jolly, tempered but positive attitude.
A man whom many accuse;
His playfulness, his abundant friends.
This is the story of a man,
When one night,
With his car parked dead by the side of the pavement,
His windows rolled down,
His car door partially opened,
His seat folded back,
Laying there in the silence,
With a cigarette on the tip of his fingers.
His mind was quiet, much like the void of the space.
His body was still, much like the midnight lake.
A mild wind broke, blowing his hair a side.
He then drew his phone from his pocket, blindly stared at it.
He opens his phone book, and so he sees familiar names.
He started off from A, scrolling his way through.
A small mosquito landed on his car door, still; as though observing him.
As he scrolled from A to G, K, S and so on,
He realized how empty the phonebook was.
He scrolled and scrolled,
And finally reached bottom Z.
He switched off his phone,
Finished his cigarette,
Flicked it out into the drain.
His seat was back up straight,
His door softly closed,
He springs the engine to live.
As he was reversing his car into the drive way,
He looked at the back mirror,
Noticing the smudged thumb print on his glasses.
He wiped it clean, and place them back on.
He sees clearer now,
his vision recovered.
So off he goes,
To where no one knows, but him.

This is a story of a man,
And that man, knows.

ஐღº Truly alone *rethought* ºღஐ

Hi and hello to all those who have once read my blog... It really has been quite some time since i last made a new post... last post was on January.. haha! Well if you are still reading this, welcome back to my blog :)

Alright... going into the main point of this post now.. I am sure some of you could remember about me posting about things regarding an individual being truly alone. Well I use to think that it was "Because I believe that it is because of those whom we have, that made us feel lonely." Well.. to be honest I am giving that a second thought. Not that the last post were wrong.. But perhaps it is the fact that progress and events that happens in our life changes our point of view from one to another. 

I am sure all of us have felt how it is like being alone, when you are so down and you feel as though you lived in different world from people. But really.. being alone gives us a moment to think.. And I think that is the reason of why people are afraid of being alone.. It is not because of the feeling of being alone that hurts a person, but silence. When a person is alone and silence strikes, it makes them question themselves. It makes them question their existence, meaning and reason for being around people. It makes people ask themselves "Do I really need to be around these people? Do i really need them?"
Questions like these often drive a person crazy at times of silence. But what that really kills a person is in fact not so much of the silence that they face whenever they get home alone, but more of that moment when they are around a bunch of people they know, yet feel completely alone. Perhaps then that is what people feel deep inside? And as they start to feel so, they isolate themselves to get rid of the loneliness that they feel while they are with their friends. And because of that, it starts to feel that being alone in silence aren't that lonely after all.

So then we question ourselves.. Is it lonelier being alone? Or lonelier feeling lonely in a bunch of people we know? I have once mentioned that without wrong decisions, there will be no right decisions.. Without darkness, there will be no light. Perhaps it is the same with being around people... We first feel alone, then feel content being around people we know.. and in the very end feel lonely around these people whom we once cared for. Or perhaps it is a form of process that happens? Just like how every starting point will have an ending point. But the true question is, what is beyond that ending point? There must be something behind it that we can yet to touch or reach for..

So then now we ask ourselves... We once felt alone, then slowly build up a bond that defeats the loneliness, yet in the end because of the bond and contentment that we have that made us realize how it is to be like being truly alone. And now we feel less lonely being alone because we know that everything will end sooner or later... But what’s next? Finding new people to add into coming chapters of our life? If so does it mean that we are basically using people to fill us up to keep us going? So are people around us just like fuel to a car? Or is it true that people can only find peace and serenity when they accepts all faults and beauty, and live a simple life? 

Thanks for reading.. Fruitful thought :))


To fill a glass to its tip may seems to hold a lot, 
            but only an empty glass can be used to fill things.
                            So then we ask ourselves, 
                                             which is more? 
                                          Empty or Content?



Axel out.
ஐღº A.C ºღஐ

ஐღº Genuine Acceptance ºღஐ

So we've always talked about how acceptable a person is. Of course to accept a person means to accept them for who they are, no doubt about that. But how do we know if we are truly accepting a person for who they are? Well i do have a question that i have been thinking about lately... Which is the differences between accepting a person for who they are and what they are.

It's simple really when a person is trying to make you accept them, they will do everything that is needed to get the green light for you're heart. But that right there is the problem. Because apparently when a person is trying to make you accept them, they will try their very best to show you the best side of them. And when they get closer to you, then only they slowly show their true colors; their true intentions and behaviors. So then i was curious about how people had a view on this. I posted a status on FB saying "Fear not to show the worst of yourself, as only true ones will stay". Apparently i didn't got a good response from there.

So the idea i had was, what if you try your best to show the worst side of you possible to a person at first sight? Do no priming or relationship bonding before showing them your true self. Would that change how they would treat you in the future? 

A simple example is that for example you've just met a person who you are interested to be friends with. However you are aware that you have a habit of smoking (Not offending any smokers out there). Which choice would you make:

A) Don't smoke on first occasion, get to know each other better first, then as both person gets closer, slowly reveal your habit to that person.

or 

B) Smoke at first occasion, regardless of how they might think about your habits.

Which choice would you make?

Well that's the question right there. Because if you prime a person before hand that you are a nice person, and that you have your good qualities as well, then slowly reveal your bad ones to them, it is more likely that they would take it easier on you and are more likely to accept your flaws. But then by doing this before hand priming has already alter the acceptance level of people towards you... They don't mind your bad habits because you are close to them, and that you are their friends. Not because of the fact that they accepted you as a person who has bad qualities. 

So by stating that example above, does that mean that everyone who hasn't seen the worst of us, or has seen the bad side of us after being primed that we are nice people have not genuinely accepted us?

Being said that, does that mean that by showing a person the worst side of us will tell us if they truly like us from the bottom of their heart? 

For me i solely believe that if a person does genuinely accept us as what we are, but not who we are, they are the ones that accepts us for what we are made of; the one who accepts us for our nature.

Drop me a Msg at FB and tell me how you think about it :)

https://www.facebook.com/YakuzaMyths

And once again thanks for reading my blog :):)

Fear not to show the worst of yourself, 

as only true ones will stay.

A.C out...
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ஐღº Greatest fault ºღஐ

The world we live are often said to be filled with miserable despairs. But the truth do not lies in the fact that our world are not as perfect as we conclude it to be. But because of the people who lives in it. Many people often said something about changing the world, making the world a better place. But the truth is, not many people dare to do what they say. As once said by Napoleon Bonaparte "The world suffers a lot. Not because of the violence of bad people, but because of the silence of the good people".

I am sure some of us has come across this some time in our life. When we are with our family watching the news, and suddenly one of your family member just said: "Gosh the world is becoming a really unsafe place". Yes true that the world are becoming more and more violent by days. But it is not solely caused by the bad will of those who committed. But because of the silence of those who are good.
All these while living on this world, only few had the courage to stand up and fight for justice that our world deserve. And yet sometimes when we have people who are willing to stand up and be a part of what that might change the world, those around them wont. And eventually the person will fall without supports of others. It takes 99% of effort and that little 1% of luck that people around us think the same to make this happen. A leader was born to make changes to the world, but yet needs the help of those committed. A football team cannot triumph with a mere leader.

Therefore to my fellow readers out there... If you are reading this, chances are there is a person around you who might just be that specific "leader" which I have mentioned. Sometimes ideas said might be silly and foresee as impossible, but with effort, commitment, trust and hope, we are able to make the impossible possible.

We are all born with potentials. Just because we have yet to discover our talent doesn't mean it does not exist. Something will forever remain as nothing if no one are willing to make it happen. Thus my friend, don't ever give up.


BTW, i hope my fellow readers can support an event that are currently on running by HELP university!!! The link are below, have a look and share it to your friends! ITS MEANINGFUL! You might just safe a life :):)

https://www.facebook.com/HELPWorldMentalHealthDay


Again thanks for reading my blog, have a nice day :)



Hold on and have a shred,
or give up and have none
Don't give up.




A.C out...
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ஐღº Support my doggies! xD ºღஐ

GUYSSS! Help me like my doggies's pics! they are all competing in a competition!! xD thanks loads!!!

ஐღº Jerry ºღஐ
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ஐღº Boss ºღஐ
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ஐღº Tofu ºღஐ
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HELP ME LIKE LIKE LIKE! thanks~



Axel out!~!
ஐღº A.C ºღஐ

ஐღº What if ºღஐ

I'm sure most of you could tell that I am rarely blogging any more. Well the thing is, life has been busy and busy all the way. To those who are still here to read my blog, i finally have a new post! ;D

Well today I have a short and interesting story that I would like to share to my fellow reader. Its a story about a girl, lets name her.... Valerie. And in Valerie's life, there are two guys who really loved her very much. And you as a reader, I hope that you are able to give me comments and suggestions about what she should do, or what the other two guys should have done. You can email me at clarence_chang_84@hotmail.com or on my fb if you have it. :D

Well lately a friend of mine told me about something. It's a she, and she have told me that all the guys are the same. And in her situation, there are two person. Person A, been in her life for almost half of her life. She loves person A very much and from the way she has expressed her concern and thoughts for him, it is of most difficult to doubt her love for him, however he is far away from her at the moment. And so on the other hand, there is a new comer into her life, which loves her very much as well. Lets name him Person B. 

However, as much as she loves person A, person A has been giving her a great deal of stress lately. And she has been sad almost every night because of the endless argument. And thus whenever person A saddens her, she would somewhat look for person B. And coincidently, person B was somehow always able to make her smile and forget about the situation which she gotten into. However person B was starting to feel that all these effort and caring was just a temporary solution for her sadness and loneliness. Person B knows that someday when person A returns to her side, she would once again dedicate her love fullest to person A. Yet person B, contradictory went against his own common sense of the situation and has chosen to stay beside her through good and bad times until person A comes back. As person B has made up his mind, he is currently doing his best to make her happy, make her smile. And to person B, he did not requested for her to be with him or anything, but just to see her happy and well is what that motivates him to continue loving her, despite the fact that he knows more well than anyone that she will only love person A always. 

At this point many of you may ask, since person A is so far away, why not try to give life a new opportunity? Well here is the thing. Person A has been in almost half of her life. They have loved each other for a really long time, and disregard of his whereabouts, he still takes the effort of calling her every single day. Although they both sometimes argue over things and some over some really little things on the phone making her sad, however he is doing this mainly because he cares for her and that he loves her wholeheartedly. Person A remembers her birthday, remembers everything that she loves and loved. Person A basically knows everything and every inch of her heart. And with little effort, person A are able to make Valerie happy and smile, unlike person B which required a lot of effort and thinking. 

Well guys from the story above, what would you comment about this? I hope you guys understand my decision of keeping all their identity anonymous as they are my friend, and I'm sure some of them read my blog as well, so I don't want to get into trouble with them. 

Please do comment, give your thoughts and opinion for this. :)

and as always have a nice day. 

A.C out...

ஐღº A.C ºღஐ

ஐღº Memories an energy? ºღஐ

Hey all to those that are still viewing my blog, its been nearly two months since I've last made a post. And Oct 1st, was one night before my dearest Jerry passed away. To those that does not know who he is, well he is my doggy, as well as my family. His been with me for 10 years. I love him a lot. And just lately, I've been constantly bringing him back into my mind. Honestly, its never easy to forget. And especially when that something or someone has played such a big role in your life. It was because of this i have raised a question towards myself, are memories some sort of energy?

This may sound quite scientific, but honestly this theory i have is pretty simple. There were questions raised before my current thinking. Which were "Does spirits exist? And if yes, what form?". Just not long ago my mate have share his thoughts and knowledge with me that a human's body produces heat. Following Newton's law, an energy will always become another energy. It transforms, but never perish. So the thing is, if a human body produces heat, when a person dies, the body becomes cold. So what did the heat of the body became? Somewhat similar of what i had in mind, what if memories were a type of energy?

For example today you went to a boxing gym, and the trainer thought you some moves for boxing, which requires you to move around, this thus has created kinetic energy (the energy of movement). But as we finished the training session and head home, we can still recall from our memories and perform the movement again, and thus creating kinetic energy again. So from this, can we conclude that memories are a form of energy?

Also can energy be considered as a form of emotions? In my personal case, i do believe that emotions are a form of investments. And as investments, being together for 10 years with Jerry has created a deep, huge investments of love and care. And now his leaving has triggered a deep emotion reaction for me. To an extend that i feel i couldn't forgive myself, and yet i do not know why i can't. Really, the feeling is almost indescribable.

On the day he passed away, i cried my heart out. And yet after two months, realizing that he could not come back no matter what, i could still cry by just saying the story again. This memory that he have given to me, not only became a part of me, but also a memory that makes me cry each time i think about. Perhaps memories were just a form of energy that are stored in us?

If memory were a form of energy, will it eventually run out? From how i think, yes it does. Lets say today you made a mistake, and that mistake were not crucial or huge, probably you will stay in your memory system for a week or so, and as this memory was transformed into sadness, eventually it will be all transformed into sadness, and in the end perish from our mind. From that we could see in my case, Jerry and i have been together for 10 years. This memory energy that was created from actions, feelings and emotions that i had with Jerry was stored in my memory system, and thus now the memory that was stored are triggered, it is constantly being transformed into sadness, joy, regrets and so on.

From what i have stated above, how do you guys think about it?

Leave some comments in the chatbox yea... thanks guys :D

Emotions today are memories tomorrow,

memories tomorrow are emotions in future.

Axel out...

ஐღº A.C ºღஐ